I've been working lately on a piece about a girl who I had recurring dreams about. The dreams went on for quite a while, and sometimes, they were blissful and at othertimes upsetting. I've been trying to capture all of the different moods of these dreams in one piece, and at the moment I'm working on a part that's supposed to sound reverential. Here's a piece of it:

http://www.gregkellum.com/media/half_light_v4_bit.mp3

There was a passage in Rilke's Elegies where he writes something along the lines of "beauty is a terror which we can still sustain because it disdains to destroy us." I've been trying to capture the mood of terror inspiring beauty in this piece. I've been concentrating on the memory of the feeling of my heart when it's beating violently in my chest and finding the music which flows naturally from this state. But it's been difficult to conjure up this feeling and the corresponding music, and everything I've done so far hasn't sounded particularly like these vague musical thoughts which come and go...